Saturday, November 13, 2010

I am F.A.T.

I pledge to myself, that I will do my best
To keep my eyes from looking for judgment
When I eat all of my dinner in a restaurant.
I do not want to take half of it home in a box,
Where it sits to grow cold and bacteria,
Or get left behind.
I will carry it home in my stomach;
That’s what my stomach is for,
Even though I’m fat.

I pledge to myself, that I will do my best
To keep my ears from searching for cruelty
As I look at pretty things in clothing stores
And the clerk says
“We do not carry anything in your size,”
In a scornful voice that drips loathing.
It is their loss of capital;
I can take my money elsewhere.
Even though I’m fat.

I pledge to myself, that I will do my best
To feel beautiful even when
Those who think otherwise
Cast their foul words my way.
Their opinions matter less to me
Than the opinion of my lover
Who insists I am beautiful
Even when I feel like shit.
Even though I’m fat.

I pledge to myself, that I will do my best
To accept who I am,
How I am,
And whenever I am,
Even if those around me refuse to do so.
I can live my life the way I want;
I will sing and dance and laugh.
Even though I’m fat.

I pledge to myself, that I will do my best
To not let the word “fat”
Mean anything cruel or ugly.
It is a word.
I am F.A.T. …
Fabulous
Attractive
Talented.

And I'm loved.
Even though I'm fat.

4 comments:

  1. Obviously I have never met you in person, Karen, but because of that and getting to know you online and through your writing I feel that I know the true essence of you, who you really are. And I have to say you are one of the most beautiful people I know. It is an honour and a pleasure to know you. It doesn't matter to me whether you are fat or thin. Just that you're you XX

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  2. Thank you, Selma. You are also one of the beautiful people on this planet and I'm very happy to be able to call you my friend.

    I love you too, Tam. Always, all ways.

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